You know how it feels like to be filled with so much anger? It's not guilt you know, it's anger. Just pure rage and abhoration for a bunch of things.

I cannot even articulate what I am feeling. It's disgusting.

And juxtapositioning the place I am in with "others who are worst off" just sucks lah ok. Why compare with others who are worse? It's just a self-preservation method. You comfort yourself, thereby convincing yourself that it is okay to remain in the detestful state that you are in.

What the fuck lah.

ARGH ARGH!!!